"Uncertainty is a sign of humility, and humility is just the ability or the willingness to learn." - Charlie Sheen
My college
graduation was one of the happiest days of my life. The people I loved were
there supporting me. The friends I spent the past four years with were there
sitting next to me. And my professors had nothing but praises for me as I
thanked them for everything they’ve taught me. It was great. So great even,
that I think it was God’s way of giving me one last really happy day before –
LIFE!

But for
most of us normal people, there’s just a whole lot of uncertainty. It’s funny
to me, because over a year has passed since I’ve graduated, and when I reflect back,
I just think to myself, “What the heck am I doing with my life?” Growing up, a
lot of people don’t know what they want to do with their lives. They may have
ideas, or dreams, but not sure how to achieve them or don’t think they are
realistic. My one dream since I was nine was that I wanted to become a
novelist.

And just to
lay it clear, here is everything I’ve been uncertain about during this past
year:
- What program to study
- What school to go to
- Where I was going to live
- Who I was going to live with
- Where I wanted to work
- Where I wanted to volunteer
- Where to go to church
- How I would afford loan payments, rent, bills, food, etc if my parents couldn't help me

Thank God,
I’m an optimist. This past year has been so hard and so uncertain for all these
reasons and more, but there is one thing that has kept me grounded. I haven’t
stopped writing. It’s been my one thing that I’ve been certain about through all the
uncertainty. I stopped
writing for a couple months after I graduated, but thankfully I have a very
good friend who shares my passion. So, we started meeting once a week to write
and critique each other. I also, became dedicated to my blog again. So that at
least I knew that every week I would be writing. My blog would be to help
others, and meeting with my friend would be to help her and me. And it’s given
me a lot of happiness.

Uncertainty
happens. No matter how much we plan and prepare, we can’t predict what will
happen or what direction our lives will change. We can’t even know for certain
if the people who are there for us will always be there for us. But you can
have one thing that you give yourself. It could be writing or music, or it
could be painting, photography, dancing, reading. It could be your ambition to start a
business and keep going after every failure. It could be the choice to go back to school and finish a degree. Or maybe it's the constant choice to go out and explore the world, acquire new experiences, and meet new people. Whatever it is, it’s what you
constantly choose to do for you, and it’s the certainty that you can give
yourself. It may not bring you success or money, but it will bring you happiness and peace of mind.
No comments:
Post a Comment